Tap Out

This week has been, for me, an epic wrestling match with God. Changes outside of me have caused quite a stir inside of me.

On the mat. Me and God. Gloves up. Body poised. Did "the dance". God led. I bled.

The bell rang. I got up off the mat and I returned to my corner. I had some time to think. Here are some random things I thought:

• I don't enjoy wrestling with God.
• It hurts when I realize I was wrong.
• Letting go is easier to say than do.
• I drink too much caffeine (told you it was a random list).
• Change is no respecter of persons.
• Pulling away from it all is invaluable for perspective.
• Unaddressed anger lowers self esteem.
• Fears are better faced than avoided.
• God is never without a plan.
• God is never confused.
• God is never in a hurry.
• God is never frustrated.
• God grieves.
• "Whatever" is the darnedest word to say to God and mean it.
• From above I will heal.

I think it's time to tap out. I'm tired. I'm sore.

I think it's time to let God lead. He's willing. He's able.

Have you ever wrestled with God? If so, what have you learned?

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Comments

[Jay Cookingham]

When I wrestle with God I learn quickly to say these words...I surrender.

That's when I find true victory. Thanks for sharing bro'

[herbhalstead]

I've been Jacob more often than I want to admit :-) I like your MMA visualization...

The last time I said, "whatever" I ended up across the country without a job, even then I fought Him.

[jasonS]

I would like to say I've been wrestling with God this week (which has been a hard week), but I feel more like I've been wrestling with myself and emotions. At the end, I still know deep inside He will do what He said He will do, but the way it looks right now is just not fun. My hope has to rest squarely in Him and I just pray I can lead others to do the same.

Thanks Scott.

[Scott Couchenour]

Jay - surrender. surrender. surrender.. I'm gonna have to start writing that down 50 times each morning. Thanks for the insight!

[Scott Couchenour]

Sounds a little like what Abraham may have said if there were blog posts back then...

[Scott Couchenour]

Jason - I bet there was a lot of struggle with self and emotions on my part as well this past week. That's good insight right there. It's tough waiting on resolution, isn't it? I know, man. Keep your hope resting squarely in Him. I'll do the same....

In the meantime, may God Himself be near you.

[Sandra Heska King]

My granddaughter and I did battle today. She didn't want to do what I told her she needed to do. I reminded her that yes, she would do it--it might be sooner, or it might be later, but she would do it, so she might as well quit wasting energy fighting it.

I think God taught me that.

[Scott Couchenour]

God's certainly a great teacher. And your granddaughter is blessed to have a mentor in you like that. Thanks for sharing.

[Jim F.]

Funny thing with Jacob and his wrestle is that He walked away with a limp which could have be a real reminder for him! I have been wrestling and learning that God always knows best!

[Scott Couchenour]

Jim - You are absolutely correct. God always knows best. It's such a tremendous lesson to learn - one that I don't think can be learned in one "session".